Back In The Work Force

Unfortunately part of my new path has included a lack of disposable income. There really hasn't been much income at all really. Don't get me wrong, I have done really well staying afloat but it's been very tight. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss the days when there were a few hundred dollars at my disposal at any given moment. However, I can say that living a more humble life is a small price to pay for being clean and sober...and on the right path again.





When I started to realize that money wasn't going to come to me as easy as it had in my previous life, I started looking into what to do for a more steady income. First I gave bartending a try but found it to be too much like high school, chaotic and full of drama. Definitely not the environment that I want to be working in. After that I gave Kelly Services a shot to see if they could find a place for me, that never really panned out. So I figured I would start back at the beginning and seek a position in the food service industry again. I swore I would never go back but times are tough and school isn't going to pay for itself.

It took a great deal of soul searching before I convinced myself there was no shame in doing what it takes to get things done. It is definitely not the proudest moment in my life but I do find solace in knowing that I am walking a better path now than I was then. Though there was plenty of money then, along with it came heavy drug use and a very promiscuous lifestyle. When I stop and think about it..I wouldn't change anything I have done in my past, nor what I am doing now. I had a lot of amazing experiences and was allotted many opportunities that many people weren't at my age.

It's just time to grow up a little and start being a big boy!

Broadway Favorites: Aida "Easy As Life"

Broadway Musical: Aida
Song: "Easy As Life"
Singer: Heather Headley



Now out of every Broadway show I have seen, AIDA is definitely my favorite. There is such a beautiful love story told in a time of war and turmoil. I have seen the show probably six times or so and still cry every time. The first time I went to see it Heather Headley returned to play the lead, as she was the original AIDA. After seeing her I was done, she was made to play that role. Since then I have seen both Deborah Cox and Michelle Williams in the part and neither quite measure up to Heather. Anyone who knows me, knows I love me a Deborah Cox but her voice was not powerful enough for the role.

The song from AIDA that has a great deal of meaning to me would be "Easy As Life" performed by Heather Headley herself. There is a point where Aida has to make a choice between the man she has fallen in love with or the people she has a responsibility to. She decides to forfeit love in order to save her people and to do that she has to convince herself that the love wasn't meant to be and that she is better off without him. The lyrics are absolutely amazing..I hope you enjoy!

"Aida, Amneris, and Radames are entangled in conflicted loyalties and emotions ("A Step Too Far"), that Aida might be a traitor to her people as she loves Radames, that his love for her could end his life as he knows it, and that he does not show the attention that Amneris deserves. Aida and Mereb bribe their way into Amonasro's prison cell, where she is reunited with her father. Mereb hatches a plan to escape with the king during the commotion of Amneris' wedding. To save her father and her nation, Aida must betray the man she loves ("Easy as Life")."

Daily Diet: Dinner

::Tonight's Dinner::

Mesquite Marinade Rib Eye
1 Sliced Cucumber Baked
1 Sliced Onion Baked
1 Corn Cob
1 Cup Wild Rice



Now tonight's dinner was a little more calories than I would normally like to have at night, but my excuse was that we ate early and had plenty of time to burn them off. Between sex, swimming, and working out..I think I burn a good amount of calories. The best part of the meal was definitely the steak..simply because Dylan and I have discovered these packs of marinade that spice up any kind of meat. Makes eating healthy so yummy!

Memory Lane: Morgan McMichaels

Walk with me down memory lane.....

Imagine how surprised I was when I turned on Rupaul's Drag Race: Season 2 and saw two of my friends from Los Angeles competing in it. The whole time we would watch I would brag about my friend Morgan McMichaels. I wasn't really that close to Raven, but Morgan and I really go back. All the way back to my drag days when we would work together at the bars around town. I remember talking shop with her backstage waiting for our numbers to come on. We would talk about everything from costumes to the method in which we would tuck. Good Times!

I've always had a soft spot in my heart for Morgan. If I remember correctly we started doing drag around the same time, and back when I was still performing, we were almost on the same level and growing together. Aside from my personal history with here though, she is absolutely amazing to watch on stage. There is just something fun and energetic about her that always entertains. There were a great deal of shady bitches in the drag scene but that was never her. I have to say that she is probably one of my favorites.

When I cut off all my hair and started living as a gay boy again I lost a lot of my friends I had made in that life. It is probably one of my only regrets about not doing drag anymore. There were some who stayed in touch but the relationship was never the same. I guess as life changes you go through different stages and along the way you lose and gain friends. Though drag was a majority of what Morgan and I had in common, even after the change we maintained a level of our friendship and that was enough for me.

I LOVE YOU BETCH!!

What My Future Holds

There has been a lot of thought on what I would like to do with my future. Over the past 8 years I have only really thought about the present and put no thought into anything after the current day. I was doing good to even plan something for the following week. Well having a new therapist helping me with my new path has had many advantages, and one of them is helping me get my ass back on track as far as school goes.

It took a great deal of thought about what I wanted to go to school for. I went to the school and grabbed a catalog to review what kind of programs were offered and see if there were any I would be interested in. With the help of my therapist, I was able to dig deep down and find things that I had passion for I never knew. One that has always held true, though I would hate to admit it, would be the passion for wanting to help others. There has always been some part of me that always wants to give a helping hand if I can. It's the part that opened up my home to many of my friends back in Los Angeles when they had no where else to go. The part of me that doesn't think twice about loaning friends money if I have it. Just anything I can do to help. Realizing this helped me decide on enrolling in a vocational nursing program.

Summer II starts in 5 weeks and I am both excited and scared at the same time. It has been over 7 years since I have been in High School and that was a fairly traumatic experience in itself. The part that worries me most is that I am paying for it myself so I can only take it one semester at a time, it all depends on where I stand financially at the start of each semester. I would like to have the security of knowing I can knock it all out of the way but I am not alotted that right now. The larger part of me however, is so fucking excited I can barely contain myself. It gives me a great deal of comfort to know that I am getting things rolling on my future. That I am not just sitting on my fat ass anymore waiting for something to happen. There will be frequent updates on the progress of my education. Stay tuned for more...

Spotlight Fashion: Tyson Ballou

Now who isn't in love with a beautiful man in an underwear ad? When I think of what would want to look like in skimpy undies, I imagine myself as beautiful and toned as Tyson Ballou. I know I am not quite there yet but do hope that one day I will be damn close. Looking through Tyson's PHOTO GALLERY I realized that he is not only good to look at, but he is also very versatile in his look. Between the racy underwear ads, fierce runway shots, and beautiful campaign layouts..it is clear that this is one model who knows what he's doing.

"Born in Garland, Texas, he began modeling at the age of 15 years old, appearing in magazines and shows in Texas. Later on, he began modeling in New York under the Ford Modeling Agency, but later signed with another agency, IMG, which was instrumental in making him one of today's most successful male models. His modeling include stints for Giorgio Armani, Versace, Exte, Calvin Klein, Tommy Hilfiger, Dolce and Gabbana, among others. In 2007, he shot a jeans campaign for luxury brand 7 for all Mankind, alongside Carolyn Murphy."

Daily Diet: Dinner

::Tonight's Dinner::

Whole Grain Linguini Pasta
Basil Pesto Sauce
Two Chicken Breasts
Two Cucumbers
One Onion
One Tomato


When I started to diet, I decided that I was only going to do a pasta once a week. Last night was the first pasta I have had in over a week and boy was it overdue. It was absolutely amazing. The chicken medley I made was something new I tried but ended up falling in love with it. There has been a great deal of experimenting going on in my house with vegetables and meats. This actually turned out to be a rather fun turn out. Definitely looking forward to making it again tomorrow.

Home Run !!!

Broadway Favorites: Les Miserables "On My Own"

Broadway Musical: Les Miserables
Song: "On My Own"
Singer: Lea Salonga


This is by far one of my most favorite broadway numbers. I have to admit I have not seen the actual show myself, but have watched the live performance of it on DVD before. I absolutely love Lea Salonga a great deal. She has an amazing voice and did a fucking amazing job in Miss Saigon (whole other entry on that show to come) and the Disney movies. However, I personally think that Frances Ruffelle did this song the best. She was the original girl to play Eponine on Broadway in the 70's. I hope you enjoy this nearly as much as I do.

On My Own

On My Own is a solo for the part of Éponine. The chorus of the song is the same tune as that of "Come to Me", although it adds a bridge and the tune of the verses are different. Beginning in the key of D, modulating to Bb(even though the song does not actually change key), then ending in F, this is her most important song.

Other uses

"On My Own" has appeared in many famous events outside of Les Misérables, for example:

* Michelle Kwan skated to it during the 1997 Skate America competition as well as the 1998 Tokyo Golden Gala.

* The character of Joey Potter in Dawson's Creek, played by Katie Holmes, sings this song at a talent show phase of a beauty pageant in Episode #1-11 "Pretty Woman," also known as "Beauty Contest."

* The character of Rachel Berry in Glee, played by Lea Michele (who played Éponine at the Hollywood Bowl production of Les Mis), sang this song as an audition to join the Glee Club in the pilot episode.[9] Michele's version has been released as a digital download single.

Left Behind: Cool Tom

So I decided that I am going to start a portion of my blog dedicated to the few but very special friends I left behind in Los Angeles. Though I have left behind that part of my life, these people were always there for me and will still be a very important part of my life. They were there with me through my addiction as well as all my accomplishments and failures. I owe a lot of who I am to my friends and I want to share some of them with everyone *wink*

First would have to be....

COOL TOM

Tom was not only an amazing friend to me over the years but I owe a lot of my success as Kyle Foxx to him. Aside from knowing everyone in the porn industry, Tom was an amazing photographer who is responsible for some of my more famous photos. It was because of him I was able to watch myself progress over the years. More so than anyone else in my life, Tom was definitely a father figure who was always looking out for me and trying to keep me out of trouble.

Working with Tom always made me feel confident because everything he said was so positive and genuinely sweet. It was his kind words that would always make me feel better if I was down. Anytime I was in need or needed someone to talk to, he was always there for me. There were times when I would be so strung out and act like a total ass...Tom would just give me time to come around and be right there for me again. There aren't very many people in my life that I feel comfortable saying I could trust with my life, but Tom is definitely one of them.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING TOM !!

Spotlight Fashion: Baptiste Giabiconi

I have always been in love with a classic Black & White photo shoot. These photos are no exception to that rule. Absolutely fucking fabulous in my eyes. They are part of the portfolio for runway and print model Baptiste Giabiconi. For only being 20 years old he has definitely already got a name going for himself. As far as I can tell, he is the lap boy for designer Karl Lagerfeld. Definitely smart move on his part. You can view the whole portfolio...

HERE

Daily Diet: Lunch

::Today's Lunch::

Tomato Basil Tortilla
Shaved Turkey Breast
Romaine Lettuce
Diced Tomatoes
Fat Free Olive Oil Mayonnaise
Low Fat Spicy Brown Mustard
& Glass Crystal Lite


The day I started eating more healthy, I went grocery shopping and stocked my refrigerator with nothing but yummy healthy foods and snacks. When I was thinking of what would be a healthy idea for lunch, I remembered how much I love a wrap. I searched through the store and found the most healthy ingredients I could to make turkey wraps and stocked up on them. Today's was especially good..I went very lite on both the mayonnaise and mustard and seasoned it with a little pepper.

Yummy Yummy!!!

Memory Lane: Prince Poppycock

Walk with me down memory lane....

Several years ago there was a club in Los Angeles by the name of FUBAR that had an event each week called DIRTY DEEDS. It was actually kind of a big deal, they had CHI CHI LARUE in the DJ booth and hot porn stars dancing and doing live shows all over the place. It was actually quite an entertaining night. It was where all of the pornstars and their admirers would come to commingle with one another. One of the few places we could go to get away from the labels and judgements that followed people in the sex industry.

Now back to the story at hand, working the door was this amazingly sweet guy who we all knew as Prince Poppycock. Most of the time he was dressed down but when he would dress up it was absolutely AMAZING. Big white wigs and old victorian type costuming, it was an astonishing transformation. Well the other night DYLAN was watching television while I was blogging. I got up to walk to the room for something and saw this guy on AMERICA'S GOT TALENT who was singing opera..I was like "hmm looks like my friend Prince Poppycock" and keep going thinking nothing about it. When I came back through, to my surprise, it was Prince Poppycock. I knew that he was amazing to look at but had no idea the bitch could sing.

BRAVO PRINCE POPPYCOCK !!!

Spotlight News: "Bionic" Album Release

Christina Aguilera
"BIONIC"

I have always been a huge fan of the lovely Christina. Her sound has grown so much over the years and she has quickly become one of the most notable voices of our generation. Though I was never really a big fan of her first album but was totally in love with "Stripped" and even more obsessed with "Back To The Basics". She has always been so beautiful in my eyes and these new photo's of her just seal the deal.

There is a rather delightful story about her and the new album "Bionic" on OUT Magazine which is rather insightful and gives a little bit of history on her as well as the scoop on the new album. There were a lot of facts and information about her that I wasn't really familiar with. After reading the entry I was actually more stoked than I already was about hearing the new album.

"Bionic does not logically follow from her last album or the one before that. From pop tart to Angry Young Woman (Stripped) to Marilyn Monroe (Back to Basics), the sequence of Aguilera’s sound is as wild as the wind. Her voice is a mercenary, one of the perks -- and pitfalls -- of being a versatile medium. “Every album has been a 180 from the past,” she admits. “On Bionic, I wanted to go completely futuristic. As a new mother, I was thinking about the future generation, so I was inspired a lot by electronic music.” When she began the album, Aguilera put out a call to artists whose work she found simpatico, an unexpected cavalcade including underground faves Le Tigre, Goldfrapp, and Ladytron. “It’s a gamble,” Aguilera says of the cattle call. “You never really know who’s going to get it and who’s not.”

That's is an insert from the article that was extremely enlightening and I wanted to share with you. I am totally looking forward to hearing the collaboration she has done with LADYTRON. There are a few of her songs that I have listened to back in the day, definitely going to be interesting to see how the two come together. To read the whole article click the link below. ENJOY!!

Christina Aguilera Reclaims The Fame

Daily Diet: Breakfast

::Todays Breakfast::

2 Lightly Peppered Eggs
1 Slice Whole Wheat Bread
2 Slice Pineapple
7 Green Grapes
& Glass Of Water




Today marks my second day of dieting and exercise. It has not been easy letting go of all the greasy yummy foods I have grown so accustom to over the past 24 years, but I am now motivated more than ever to get in shape and start living healthy. I would usually have had bacon and potatoes to go along with it and had sweet tea or something to drink. It's amazing how even though I am eating less..it is just as filling. Now I may not be posting every meal of the day but I am going to make it a goal to post at least one meal of the day. If for no other reason, just to keep up with my own progress. I will also probably start a daily post of my exercise routine and the such!

Childhood Obsession

SAILOR MOON

Sailor Moon has been my favorite cartoon since the first time I saw it come on the Cartoon Network. It was part of an afternoon lineup called TOONAMI when I was in middle school. It would come on at 3:30pm and I wouldn't get out of school until 3:15pm so I had to pass on riding the bus home and run the two miles to my house in order to catch it. I remember that thirty minutes each weekday being the happiest I remember being as a child.

Now Cartoon Network only played the first two seasons on their station so I knew nothing of the other three seasons and three full length feature films that were out there. When I started making good money escorting and having a disposable income, the first order of business was to locate and buy every Sailor Moon media I could find. That began a two week search across the internet and most of southern California for what I needed. It took a lot of hard work and dedication but I was finally in possession of everything I wanted.

Sailor Mercury had always been my favorite of all the scouts. She was always the smart one in the group and her powers were water based, which as a Pisces I loved. When I started watching the rest of the series and learned of all the other scouts that were introduced later, I quickly fell in love with Sailor Pluto instead. She was the eldest of the group and by far the most powerful. Very mature and only came around in times of desperate need. I admired how hard she worked to keep the others together and make sure that things didn't get too out of control.

Where My Heart Is

When I first moved here to Dallas things were so crazy and messed up. It took me a very long time to sort everything out and start getting things on the path that I wanted them to be on. Along with all the normal stresses of moving to a new town, I also had the extra burden of learning how to live my life again sober and worrying about meeting new friends. In the beginning I fell into the wrong crowds, just like before, but I quickly remembered that's not why I moved here and pulled away. In that short time I started talking to several guys who turned out to be very disappointing, so it was quite refreshing when I came across someone who was actually nice to me and I enjoyed being around!

James & Dylan

Cicero and I were getting out hair cut at this salon on the gay strip here in town where I saw this cute blonde boy working the front desk. The whole time I was getting my hair cut I was looking at him through the mirror. I never said anything, just paid him and left. I would walk by the salon often and each time we would make eye contact and smile at each other. The next time we went in to get our hair done, I asked our stylist about him. Found out his name was Dylan and he was single, SWEET! When Isabell finished with my hair I gave him a card with my name and number on it and told him to give it to Dylan if he asked about me, but to throw it out if not. Needless to say I got a text from him a few days later and things went from there.


It has been three months now and has been quite an interesting ride. There has been many ups and downs but it's definitely been amazing. I have only been in two serious relationships in the past and both times there were many factors that played in their falling apart. For the first time I feel like I am giving my relationship a fair fighting chance and that feels good. I have only lived with one other boyfriend and that wasn't working out due to my escorting and our frequent drug use. It has definitely been a very complicated and hard thing for me to achieve, but it has definitely been worth the work. Very thankful to have Dylan in my life.

The Show Must Go On

Oh man where do I start ?!?!?





I have spent the last 8 years of my life as someone else. When I was 16 I started doing drag and took on the persona SERENA SKYY. In that time I moved to Los Angeles and built a rather good name for myself. Around the time I turned 19 I decided to cut off all my hair and start over as a boy. Only weeks after that I was recruited into the gay porn world where I then took on the persona KYLE FOXXX. That continued to be image all the way up to my move to Dallas early this year. I spent so long being all these other people, that I forgot how to just be James.

Kyle Foxxx Blog

Moving to Dallas has probably been one of the best moves I have made in my life in a very long time. Though I had many amazing friends and a pretty good life in Los Angeles, I also had a very hearty drug addiction which had consumed me for nearly 5 years. When I decided to stop using and start living sober I was faced with a rather hard decision. I could either cut everyone off I knew and start from scratch in LA (which would have killed me being around people I considered friends for so long and not be able to hang out with them) OR I could take my chances in a new town and try rebuilding my life there. Obviously I chose the latter of the two and it has worked out fairly well for me so far.

Part of my new path includes a more healthy day to day routine and diet, making time to work out and work on my body several times a week, and finding fun and healthy hobbies to take up my free time. It has been a constant battle to stay sober but I find little things every day that make it easier. It helps that I am surrounded with people who care a great deal about me and want to see me get better. Having my best friend, Cicero, here in Dallas with me makes the change so much easier. I can't imagine having to have done it without him. I still stay in contact with many of my friends back in Los Angeles and do hope to make it back that way sometime soon for a visit. I just feel that right now I am where I need to be and need to work on that.

I thought long and hard about what it is I wanted to do with this blog and came up with plenty of thoughts and goals. First and most important..I am going to use it as a method of tracking my progress with my diet and exercise regiment. There will probably be frequent updates as to what I have been eating and what I am doing in the gym. I also think it's important to stay true to my interests, so there are sure to be plenty of posts on hot boys and fun toys. Throw in some quirky stories and personal opinions here and there..and that will probably be the gist of it. I am very excited about this new venture and look forward to taking you all down....

.......THE BEATEN PATH !!!!!!!